03 April 2016 @ 11:22 pm
Sooo~~  
WE WON~ I know, it's a little late to be bragging about it, but I was busy spending time with sister after the games, then went to the aquarium with Nagi~

Sis...

She's camera shy~

I got to chill this weekend but I've been so busy and focused that now I feel I have nothing to do!! D: I don't like feeling like this so I must plan something soon, like get things going for the hanami party this following weekend~

Ah yeah, the coach wants us practicing from tomorrow though, that's good but Aominecchi doesn't want to play one on one with me for some stupid reason though we don't even have classes yet. Something to do with potential newcomers. I don't know really.

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I don't feel like I can talk much about what's going on between Aominecchi and I because it's so confusing I don't even know where to start. I feel like he's playing with my heart... he gives so much but then takes it all back, he's so confused and I can understand why, but he makes me confused too! It's frustrating and it hasn't even started. But I can't do anything about it... because I'm weak. I'm so weak for this idiot.
Why is it never easy for me?! He goes from shutting the door in my face to wanting me to sleep in his bed in less than a month. Then I say I'm going out with a friend, he cuts be out for 2 days, no messages, no calls because that's how he 'deals' with things. He asks me not to wait too long to love him, then when I comply he says he loves me but is not ready... he hugs me, he pushes me away... I tell him I'm in love with him, he gets happy and seductive, keeps being sexy and alluring... and 10 minutes later he is asking me what if it takes a year for him to be ready, will I wait? I get mad cos... A YEAR? I'm having issues with being this long without sex... a YEAR? I complain and he says i only talk about the sex. What?! He's had his hands all over me! Then he says I don't understand, then he hugs me, and he kisses me, and asks me to stay for the night.

WHAT IS GOING ON?!!? I'M DYING HERE!!! HE'S KILLING ME!!

Why can't it just be 'I love you, be with me?' 'Yes, I'll be with you~ <3 Yay!' ... :/ I usually don't like it boring and easy, but right now, all I want is for my heart to get off this continues roller coaster ride. I want it to be easy... BORING... give me boring! I'm emotionally exhausted.

He makes me happy tho... u_u i'm a masochist, i must be.
 
 
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ahonoyume: lemme think about it[personal profile] ahonoyume on April 10th, 2016 03:56 pm (UTC)
Good ages, but there's still plenty of time.

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Give that time too. You said it before, right? You want a relationship to grow more slowly and strongly?

What are you doing now? Just spending time together, playing basketball?
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nantokacchi: look up[personal profile] nantokacchi on April 11th, 2016 04:41 am (UTC)
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Yeah, I know. I do want it like that and we are taking is slowly, I suppose....a bit.

We went on a date on Friday. We spend most of the time together. We've been friends for many years but only now we are getting to know each other. We hang out together, we each together and we even spend most nights in each other's bed.... Sleeping, literally. Well, we got frisky last Friday but that's all. I'm not sure why we aren't dating, he says he needed time because he isn't ready and I get it, but what if he's never ready? What if he realises he enjoys this but can't do the whole gay relationship thing. ;_;
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ahonoyume[personal profile] ahonoyume on April 11th, 2016 08:15 pm (UTC)
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If you've come this far since the last time we spoke on this, Kise-kun, I don't think you have to worry about him 'never being ready.'

He's going through something that's both exciting and confusing. Be there for him, try your best to be patient, and you'll get what you deserve.
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nantokacchi: >.>[personal profile] nantokacchi on April 14th, 2016 11:46 pm (UTC)
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What is I don't deserve him? Or this? He's not like me, like I was.
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ahonoyume: tip of the hat[personal profile] ahonoyume on April 15th, 2016 01:11 am (UTC)
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Kise-kun, everyone deserves to be happy.

And if you're referring to sexual proclivity, that doesn't disqualify you from a relationship. You're just more experienced coming into it.
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nantokacchi: look up[personal profile] nantokacchi on April 15th, 2016 05:35 am (UTC)
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I know, but he's special...feels like I'm getting a lot more that my share.

I don't know what that word means :| ... I'll google later Is tha a good or a bad thing tho?


[ooc: strike deleted... He never did look it up tho >.>]
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