Sooo~~

[nantokacchi]

WE WON~ I know, it's a little late to be bragging about it, but I was busy spending time with sister after the games, then went to the aquarium with Nagi~

Sis...

She's camera shy~

I got to chill this weekend but I've been so busy and focused that now I feel I have nothing to do!! D: I don't like feeling like this so I must plan something soon, like get things going for the hanami party this following weekend~

Ah yeah, the coach wants us practicing from tomorrow though, that's good but Aominecchi doesn't want to play one on one with me for some stupid reason though we don't even have classes yet. Something to do with potential newcomers. I don't know really.

[PRIVATE]
I don't feel like I can talk much about what's going on between Aominecchi and I because it's so confusing I don't even know where to start. I feel like he's playing with my heart... he gives so much but then takes it all back, he's so confused and I can understand why, but he makes me confused too! It's frustrating and it hasn't even started. But I can't do anything about it... because I'm weak. I'm so weak for this idiot.
Why is it never easy for me?! He goes from shutting the door in my face to wanting me to sleep in his bed in less than a month. Then I say I'm going out with a friend, he cuts be out for 2 days, no messages, no calls because that's how he 'deals' with things. He asks me not to wait too long to love him, then when I comply he says he loves me but is not ready... he hugs me, he pushes me away... I tell him I'm in love with him, he gets happy and seductive, keeps being sexy and alluring... and 10 minutes later he is asking me what if it takes a year for him to be ready, will I wait? I get mad cos... A YEAR? I'm having issues with being this long without sex... a YEAR? I complain and he says i only talk about the sex. What?! He's had his hands all over me! Then he says I don't understand, then he hugs me, and he kisses me, and asks me to stay for the night.

WHAT IS GOING ON?!!? I'M DYING HERE!!! HE'S KILLING ME!!

Why can't it just be 'I love you, be with me?' 'Yes, I'll be with you~ <3 Yay!' ... :/ I usually don't like it boring and easy, but right now, all I want is for my heart to get off this continues roller coaster ride. I want it to be easy... BORING... give me boring! I'm emotionally exhausted.

He makes me happy tho... u_u i'm a masochist, i must be.

Comments

[starvillager]

Even though I can see your sister's face, I'm sure she's pretty! She doesn't like taking her picture? That's cute!

You are planning a Hanami party? Good luck Kise-kun! Planning out parties are always lots of work but totally worth it in the end.

[nantokacchi]

She is beautiful~ I'm not sure why she gets upset about some of her photos. It's more silly rather than cute XD

I enjoy it. Are you coming?

[starvillager]

Hehehe, have you tried telling her she needs to appreciate her beauty and take more photos?

I'd love to and I'll definitely try! I might even cook up something to bring if I have the time.

[nantokacchi]

She knows. She was the one who got scouted by the modelling agency then dragged me into it cos it wasn't her thing.

If you cook something then I'll definitely try~ ;)

[starvillager]

Wow, that's so neat! Your family must be filled with model talent.

I'll be sure to let you be one of the first people to try my cooking~

[aomine_daiki]

There wasn't anyone promising from the new recruits. Johoga will have to rely on me again.

[nantokacchi]

And me.

[aomine_daiki]

But more importantly, me. Right?

[nantokacchi]

Wrong. Equally important.

[izen]

You must've been popular at the aquarium.

[nantokacchi]

A bit. I was in disguse. But don't be jealous, Zaicchi, next time you can go out with me and experience being popular.

[izen]

Chum is popular with sharks.

[nantokacchi]

Uhn? I don't think sharks know I'm popular tho.


_{[ooc: ;_; he's dummy sometimes]}

[izen]

What a pity. You should go in the tank and tell them.

[nantokacchi]

I don't think they appreciate fashion.

[izen]

They can appreciate you in other ways.

[nantokacchi]

Are you saying you want them to eat me??

[ahonoyume]

I'm sure that your sister has no reason to be camera shy.

[nantokacchi]

XD She really doesn't, but she doesn't like surprise selfies, sadly.

[ahonoyume]

Ah, I can understand that. What a shy, sweet beauty. I hope for the opportunity to meet her someday.

[nantokacchi]

You are the 2nd guy to say that to me in the last 2 weeks. That being said, I wouldn't mind introducing you to any of my sisters ;)

[ahonoyume]

You have good genes ;) I would be honored.

And how are you doing?

[nantokacchi]

We do ;) My older sister, older than that one, has green eyes, she's very pretty too. It's a shame they all have bad luck in love, so I'm not sure when I'm getting cute nephews and nieces to keep the good genes going.

I'm good, many things happened during Nationals~

[ahonoyume]

It's early yet. Some things are worth waiting for.

Oh? That sounds promising.

[nantokacchi]

Early for me, not for them though.

It is~

[Screened]
Remember that person I said I wasn't sure I liked or was just horny? Turns out that it's the former.

[ahonoyume]

How old are they?

[Screened]

That's wonderful! I'm so happy for you, Kise-kun. And his feelings?

(ooc: so sorry for the late reply, omg. I went off on a trip and totally forgot - memory got jogged)

[nantokacchi]

One is 27, and the one in the picture is 24.

[screened]
Mutual,.. but we're not dating. :( It's weird because I really want it.

_{[ooc: Don't worry~ Did you have fun?]}

[ahonoyume]

Good ages, but there's still plenty of time.

[Screened]

Give that time too. You said it before, right? You want a relationship to grow more slowly and strongly?

What are you doing now? Just spending time together, playing basketball?

[screened]

[nantokacchi]

Yeah, I know. I do want it like that and we are taking is slowly, I suppose....a bit.

We went on a date on Friday. We spend most of the time together. We've been friends for many years but only now we are getting to know each other. We hang out together, we each together and we even spend most nights in each other's bed.... Sleeping, literally. Well, we got frisky last Friday but that's all. I'm not sure why we aren't dating, he says he needed time because he isn't ready and I get it, but what if he's never ready? What if he realises he enjoys this but can't do the whole gay relationship thing. ;_;

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[ahonoyume]

If you've come this far since the last time we spoke on this, Kise-kun, I don't think you have to worry about him 'never being ready.'

He's going through something that's both exciting and confusing. Be there for him, try your best to be patient, and you'll get what you deserve.

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[nantokacchi]

What is I don't deserve him? Or this? He's not like me, like I was.

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[ahonoyume]

Kise-kun, everyone deserves to be happy.

And if you're referring to sexual proclivity, that doesn't disqualify you from a relationship. You're just more experienced coming into it.

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[nantokacchi]

I know, but he's special...feels like I'm getting a lot more that my share.

I don't know what that word means :| ... I'll google later Is tha a good or a bad thing tho?


_{[ooc: strike deleted... He never did look it up tho >.>]}

[heart_clips]

Aw, that's a cute picture ~ She really shouldn't feel shy.

Nothing wrong with nothing. You should relax

[nantokacchi]

She really isn't tho, not really.

All wrong with nothing! It's boring ;_;

[free_rin]

Congrats

[nantokacchi]

;) thank you~